Name:kib Location: Please select..., United States Birthday:9/23/1990
Interests:I like to read...a lot. i like to read novels like harry potter & the Odyssey( weird huh) & my bestest friends in the while wide world novels (which, someday, i'm gonna make her get them published), i LOVE to sketch, even though i'm not that good @ it. i can draw on the computer in the paint prog fairly well. I POSITIVELY LOVE TO READ MANGA. my fav including gravitation & FAKE. i love anything anime, EXCEPT FOR THAT POKEMON BULL SHIT. (excuse the last word, por favor) anywayz...i love to read poetry too, b/ i'm not so good @ writing it.
< Expertise:Expertise:i find that i'm quite well @ guessing how ppl will respond to certain things. (wish to become a psychiatrist by the way) i'm also good @ reading my best friend's mind, as she so kindly put it, & coming ^ w/ these cool ideas for sketching. i'm pretty good @ singing too. i like to help ppl too, & i'm pretty good @ that too...i think
I'm really sorry about what I'm about to tell you.
For those of you who already know...well....
Kimyetta, the beloved of so many people, has died. She was killed in a car crash. I found out Saturday night from her mother.
I'm not sure what to say. I mean, I think I know what you all are going through....but even though she and I were closer than twin sisters for four long years of our lives I can't even cry about it. She was the best thing that ever happened to me...and to be completely honest I have no fucking idea what I'm going to do now. I have no friends now and every second I keep picking up the phone to dial her number, to call her and say "So are you still coming to my house Friday?"
I was going to teach her the descant to Sleeping Beauty. She wanted so bad to sing it with me.
...she wanted me to sing for her again. And I didn't.
... all I can tell you, or her, is that I loved her. I always will. She really was my entire world and for the rest of my life there's never going to be anyone like her. Kimmy was my mommy-when-my-mom-was-doing-a-bad-job-at-it.
I need you to know something....even though we kept fighting since what happened in July....
Currently Listening Emotive By A Perfect Circle Counting Bodies like Sheep... see related
Okay. New entry.
schools itself isnt so bad, but my grades are a different story. right now, i'm lucky i'm not on probation. on the brightside, this is only the 1st 6 weeks of the 2nd semester, so there's room for improvement. what's more is that i did a lot better in some of my classes than i originally thought. and so far so good for Sibley's new project with the movie. i finished the storyboard today, so the only thing i have to do is help with the script and memorize my lines. other than his class, i have to study for a vocabulary quiz for English, study for a math test, finish writing my definitions for math, finish my Spanish study guide, read and reread my biology book (Ch. 9 not the entire thing), find a polititcal cartoon out of a magazine or newspaper, and study for a free enterprise test. sounds like a lot, and it is. well, i guess i should be starting on that...hm...
Oh, and i'm really missing my Papi right now...i wonder what he's doing, and if he has as many assignments as me...
Pif...i wish i could say something else, but i'm sorry. things just alawys seem unfair when it comes to your life. i know that isnt exactly what you need to hear, but that's all i can think of to say. (so much for me being a psychiatrist...)
...why the hell do you do this? you get angry, and you act all passive aggressive towards me. ALWAYS towards me. it hurts most times, but i'm able to get over it. i care more about you feeling better than me feeling hurt. if it means screaming at me, being rude to me, giving me the cold shoulder...i dont care. i just want you to be happy. this time though, what you said...whether true or not...you had no right to say those things. that was hurtful. i know i have issues. i dont need you to fucking spell it out for me. and NO not every little fucking thing is always gonna be fine. and excuse the fuck out of me if i havent lost my faith and still try to be optimistic about life. i'm not a very happy person, and you know that. i'm logical, real, sensitive...i'm me. and yea, i am sorry a lot of the times, but not just because of me and my own follies, but for and because of other people as well. maybe you can branch away from other people, but i cant, and no, that's not being needy. wanting to care and feel a part of something isnt being needy. this is who i AM. the people that you want so desperately to break away from, they're MY people. and i have a right to feel sorry for their ignorance as much as my own. and you know what else? YES i am sorry that you dont know what to do with me anymore. i'm sorry i'm such a friggin burden to you. that i'm so damned irritating, that i whine, that i hold in my emotions, because i dont want others to see just how week i really am...i'm sorry that you have to put up with the bullshit you do at home, that i cant offer you an escape all the time, that i cant be there with you all of the time. all i can do is apologize and pray for things to get better in the future. hate me. hurt me. try to kill me in the future the next time i say i'm sorry, but dont get angry. dont take my intentions and make them seem small and indifferent. dont make me seem like i'm heartless and am only trying to be curtious. i'm more caring than that.
shit...i have the hiccups...and myspace is being shitty. (sorry i cant reply Zach, that's why i dont like using myspace!!!)
oh, and i think that i'm gonna quit this...xanga, myspace, hi5, tagged...all of it. just give it a rest for a while...
and i thought that i couldnt hurt from the things that the guy that i'm in love with does or doesnt do...but idk...i do feel, well, a bit cheated. how foolish of me...hm...it's all really stupid. but i cant change how i feel. ::sigh:: i just wish something would happen. soon.
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